Every one has them right? Those Terrible-No-Good-Very-Bad-Days. The days where for some reason
everything just feels way too overwhelming. Please tell me I am not
the only one that suffers from these beast of a day. I admit they are
few and far between, but man when they rear their ugly heads they do
it with vengeance. They mean business!
Last night it happened. I was talking
to hubby on the phone and seriously the flood gates opened. I hadn't
thought my day was bad. The kids were being kids, the house wasn't
too tornado stricken, and we even had game night, but once the
littles were tucked in and I started planning out things to do, I
started to feel that overwhelming stress enshroud me.
Our swamp cooler needed cleaning, which
is usually the hubbs job. I stay away from expensive machinery. It
makes me nervous. I am always convinced it will break once I lay a
finger on it. I was also researching how to add drop down tabs to the
blog and was becoming confused with all the html code chat. It was a
bit too much. Then Hubby called. Oh that sweet man of mine. Even
though he is hours away, he knows when I need to hear his voice. I
started to cry, not really knowing why I was crying. He of course
told me crying wasn't playing fair. He considers it cheating (he
can't stand to see/hear me cry). It basically breaks his tough man
heart. Once I calmed down a bit, we started talking. I told him how I
felt like I wasn't getting anything done I wanted to, how I didn't
know if I wanted to keep blogging, how I didn't know how the heck I
was going to clean that swamp cooler. I told him I didn't know what I
was doing. After my cathartic release, things started to become
clearer. Talking to my hubby tends to do that.
He summed it up pretty quickly for me
with “Babe you're just having a bad day”. Simple, but
absolutely true. Everyone has them. I started to think about how we are given trials to
make us stronger. Since my hubby has left, I have been feeling great.
I miss that man's face like something fierce, but I know this season
we are in is going to give us a better future. He is training, so he
can support and provide for this family of ours. I feel so blessed
for everything we have been given. I have amazing sister-in-laws, who have been calling, visiting, sending prayers my
way. They are amazing and I am thankful for them everyday. Last night was
just one day, where things had gone a muck.
After talking to the Hubbs, and saying
a few goodnight-I love yous, things were better. I was reminded that
I could do hard things. I know that through Christ anything is
possible. I know that I have a lot on my plate, but I know that all
of these things (including blogging) are what my Heavenly Father
wants me to be doing right now. I know I fall short, but I know that
each day I can get a little bit closer to that person that God knows
I can be.
Now I know you are going to ask...no I
do not plan on stopping the blog. In fact I don't think I ever could.
I know that this blog, sharing our story and how we live, has helped
so many. I pray everyday that this blog will find those people that
need help. I am so thankful for you lovelies that come here everyday.
When I am down and not sure if anyone even reads this ole blog of
mine, I receive some comment/email love from one of you lovely ladies
and gents. You inspire me....always.
I am thankful for trials because they
have shaped me into who I am. Had my hubby been able to find a job
four years ago, we would have never learned how to live on a budget,
and I would never have started this blog. The past four years have
been a whirlwind, full of many trials, but it was through these
trials that numerous blessings came to pass.
If you are struggling today, I pray for
you. If you are feeling less than perfect, I pray for you. If you are
looking for answers, I pray for you. I am in the same boat. I know
that we can overcome hard things because we are daughters and sons of
a king. He loves us and will carry us when we can no longer walk. He
holds our hands when we can no longer see where to go.
Thank you for always being kind and
loving. Sharing from the heart is a vulnerable thing, but I'm
thankful for amazing readers who love and show kindness in all they
do. You people rock!
P.S.
The A Way Back to You Giveaway Winner is Mel G!
P.S.
The A Way Back to You Giveaway Winner is Mel G!
XO Danielle
